2004-02-28 2:13 a.m.

Dear So and So,

I would like to take this opportunity to enlighten you with an outside perception of who you really are vs. who you think you are.....

Don't get me wrong...It's not like I think you are the shittiest person I have ever met but, I have met bums, junkies, and hookers who are more in touch with reality than you are.

To begin with, you think that the mere act of making half a million dollars a year makes you smarter and better than those around you and thus more deserving of respect or even more ridiculous, more empowered to treat others like shit. You are not that smart Deb. You do have talent though. The talent to bullshit and to manipulate others with little or no backbone into doing what you want.

That's where our problems arise. I won't take your shit. At first you thought it was admirable because you thought it was only Janice that I would be standing up to. However, when you decided to denigrate me, things changed.

In your completely deluded idea of the world, everyone is out to get something from you. Apparently, someone must have handed you an astronomy book that stated that the Earth revolved around you. If not, then I don't understand what makes you so important so that others would waste their time trying to screw you over. In my opinion (and you know what they say about opinions), you think that of others because your true nature is such that you don't deal with anyone unless you stand to gain something from them. That's why you went to see Vincent the other day. Your brother in law needs something from him. I now understand and see that he was right in his claims that you weren't around him anymore because he didn't have the money or the clout that you once sought out from him.

You are highly insecure about mostly everything in your life and more vain than even most celebrities I've met. It's so obvious to everyone that you have had a multitude of aesthetic alterations yet, you continue to diet as if somehow that next fruit salad finally might bring your breasts back up above your waist.

While on the subject, I was wondering if you had ever given a thought to ...I don't know giving yourself an ass to go with those tits? To say you look like a cheap champagne fluke would be an understatement.

I am twenty six years old and through my own wits and survival skills I have never gone hungry or homeless. I never needed you before and I certainly don't need you now and I know that just pisses you off that you can't hold anything over my head.

That's how you keep those you think you love around....By holding some sort of trump card that you can pull out at will whenever your ass itches in such a way.

I can also add that I can look in the mirror and know that I never used a man that I didn't love, to care for a child that I didn't have time for. He wanted attention sooo bad he turned to drugs and alcohol to fill the void.

The logical question to follow would be if you felt that you wanted to commit your preteen attention starved son to a hospital for his own sake or was it so you can go on with your life and not have to add the burden of caring a nurturing and supporting a child through his own tough times?

How can you expect a child not to grow up wanting pills when you fed him pills that would make him high (ritalin) at age 9? How and where do you get off thinking that you are somehow better and more together than he is when you are still taking your so called prescribed pills?

You think you are soooo successfull....At what selling property? yes.

But at what point in life did you erroneously make the assumption that self validation is achieved through equity? Do you seriously think that ANYONE repects you for the money you make or that you are better than anyone else for the same reason? You're wrong! Your brother is still more honorable and smarter and because of that he will be evermore fulfilled in his endeavors than you can imagine

Can you cook?

Can you excel in sports?

Ever been able to create a stable relationship?

Can you be a nurturing, supportive, and loving wife/mother, as opposed to a domineering, manipulative, and threatening one?

What about making time those you love at the expense of your job?

Have you taken a moment to enjoy the fruits of your labor, or do you work and work in a meaningless attempt to avoid the failure that is every other part of your life?

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