2003-04-28 9:22 p.m.

My back is killing me. That's what happens when you have three herniated discs and no medical insurance. I get to endure endless nights of pain. I got trashed and got laid the other night but of course it only made my back even worse so that was pretty much pointless.

I am so fuckin stressed right now. Rent is due soon and I don't have the money and neither does my roommate for that matter. I have no idea what I am going to do.

I let this kid Devin move in and I thought he would help me out but I have actually inherited a child to take care of. I pay for most everything and I drive him around everywhere. This really blows.

I also gave this other kid Lee a place to stay when he got kicked out of his place and I thought that he would bail us out on the rent..Instead he bailed to Michigan without so much as a goodbye..Burned yet again. Surprise Surprise

I am so fucking hungry right now and there is nothing here to eat. Oh of course I spent my last fifty dollars on premium cat and dog food the other day. Me? I'm starving to death. I agree I could stand to lose the weight anyway but I would have liked to have made the choice.

Even the animals are punking me left and right. Akasha is always an angel. Kinu shit on bath mat and I stepped in it on the way to the can in the middle of the night. Then he topped it off by pissing on my favorite dickie shorts (with my money still in them) Daisy pissed on the other side of te bed the other night. Thank God I bought that water proof fitted sheet when I got the bed but what the fuck. Do you know what a mission it is to pull everything off and clean all over again. Not to mention that it costs 6 bucks in laundry every time! Can I get a fuckin break please!

I am still working at an animal hospital but they told me the other day that I am not geting enough respect from the clients because I have so many tattoos so they cut my hours in half. Nice.

So let's see what else in my life is shitty? Of course I have no one that means anything to me around and I am lonely as all hell. On the same token, I don't have even a vague memory of what being in love is all about anyway.

On the flip side of the whiny boo hoo hoo is me coin....I have been getting plenty of free ink lately. Everytime I get pissed off at something, I go get some ink. I am almost done with the right half sleeve. One or two more pieces and then we finish off the background and I am done. After that I will prolly finish my back before I move on to the left arm.

I also got a great hook up at the record store and I have gotten hella free music and posters and such...

This kid j from south beach has hooked me up with all kinds of internet file sharing sites and I have gotten so much cool and brand new shit it's not even funny. But havin all the newest movies and tracks on my computer doesn't pay the fuckin bills!!!!!

Argh!!!! I am so over this fuckin life right now.

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